confessions

I cant start from the begining cuz of the u******e thing so Ill start on my 18th birthday.I went to school for half days, then work for the other half. every day I would stop at home; while my parents were at work, and jack off.but not like most boys. most boys would blow their load, wipe it up and be done. That was fine at first but I wanted to be as perverted as I could with my hour of total privacy. See back then, growing up in a small town before internet, I was sure that nobody masturbated as much as me and I would do it as much as possible just to be sure but I wanted go further so one day I took one of my moms tampons and inserted it in my ass. Surprisingly I got an instant boner! Wow I thought, I must be the most bizarre k** on the planet. I had a girlfriend at the time ,but always had gay fantasies while I masturbated and one day I was at home for my before work jack session and right before I came I just slid down on the couch, kicked my feet up over my head and gave myself a great big facial, I was gonna cum right down my throat but I chickened out and closed my mouth at the last second, but only that time. the very next day I did the same thing only this time I held my mouth wide open and actually came in my own mouth, and swallowed it all for the first time. Afterwords I felt dirty and ashamed but not for very long and by the next day I was ready to do it again, and the day after that, and before long I was eating my own cum every time cuz I loved it and I was certain I was the only one who ever came in their own mouth. I even kept a spoon next to my bed so I could just sc**** it off my stomach and sip it up little by little making it last. so to my highschool girlfriend, I confess.all those times I ate your pussy after we fucked and I came to quick, wasnt to finish you off like you thought. I was actually licking up my cum as it oozed out of you. Also your sister wasnt taking your tampons, It was me. Oh one more thing, I used your moms dildo on myself..... a few times.I dont know why but Ive just always liked to do things to myself that would absoulutely, totally,completely freak a person out if they walked in on me or cought me in the act. like What would my dad say if he walked in on me upsidedwon on my couch naked with cum all over my face?! Or what would my girlfriends mom say if she caught me riding her dildo!? Or how would I explain the tampon in my butt to her? things like that. That was the begining, 20 years ago. Since then Ive evolved into what I can only describe as a gay sissy.I dress up like a girl and only watch shemale porn. Its been over two years since my penis has felt the inside of a pussy, and I dont even care cuz from now on Im only gonna use my ass to fuck.Next I wanna feminize my body, put on a pretty outfit and make videos of me getting fucked and creampied by big black guys and post them all over the web!!! so stay tuned.